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Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

To all those who want to hear about my problems..

..in other words, no one. Well, actually to all those who have read my previous posts about my parents. Well today I'm going to crap on my dad (metaphorically). We were chatting happily (very rare) about school and my life basically, then because I was so happy that we were actually having a "happy" conversation I talked about Sex Ed. Mio (Yea. That's her real name.) and I were passing notes ~we both already knew everything the teacher was saying~ about our weddings and what we wanted our husbands to be like and what we're looking for in a guy. And frankly we both were a lil' jealous cus' my mum she got her first bf when she was 13 and that relationship lasted for about 5 years, even when he went for NS. And then they got married. Now they're both happily married with 4 kids to boot. The fact that she married at such a young age, 18, when most would probably be divorced, and the fact that she's still happily married today just proves how lucky she is to have found "Mr. Right" on her first try. I'm pretty serious when it comes to my love life. I don't want to waste my time with anyone I can't see myself marrying. But I'm only thirteen so I guess that's a bit too serious. So..I won't waste my time with guys I can't see myself together with for a year. But then again.. most of my friend's relationships only last a few weeks.. No. I'll stick with a year. But anyway back to my dad. So we kinda gradually lead the conversation to when my childhood (not that I'm not a child but I'm almost a teenager)and he told me this one story that just bugs me. My dad has serious anger issues.. He fucking hates crying even though it's the natural thing to do (ESPECIALLY FOR KIDS) So he actually left me in the car alone in the car park because I couldn't open the car door... I WAS THREE! I BLOODY BARELY KNEW HOW TO FUCKING WALK! So I started crying and he kept shouting at me until I finally managed to open the door. He apparently believes that the younger the kid stops crying, the more resilient he/she will be. It's not that I don't believe this but WTF! YOU DON'T SHOUT AT TODDLERS FOR CRYING! On top of this, and I believe I have told this story before but for those of you who haven't seen my previous posts I'll tell the story again. Again, when I was 4, I started crying in the car and then he put me at the side walk and just drove off. He made one round and picked me up again. DOESN'T HE CARE WHETHER I GET TAKEN AWAY?! WTF! Furthermore, he says he's scolded me the most out of his four kids. My younger bro was scolded second most. My younger younger bro was scolded second least and my youngest bro is getting scolded less than all of us. WAS I SOME KIND OF EXPERIMENTAL THING? WAS HE EXPERIMENTING ON ME SO THAT HE WOULD KNOW WHAT NOT TO DO WITH THE OTHER KIDS? Sigh.. I'm not saying he's a bad parent but he just has a fucking bitching approach to life. My mum's the one who knows about my and my bros lives. She's the health and homework freak and my dad's the computer-games-and-junk-food-are-good-for-you one. Sigh..

Life sucks sometimes..

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

Yesterday is history, Tomorrow's a mystery, Today is gift. That's why it is called the present.

The utter stupidity of having four kids never ceases to amaze me. The utter stupidity of me having three younger brothers never ceases to amaze me. The fact that they run around is just crap. These few sentences aren't really connected to the rest of this post but my brothers are what set me off to type this. The fact that I am feeling the impact of loneliness is crap. I have been a loner for my entire life and somehow it has never affected me till' now. I don't know what set it off but I think my failing attempts at trying to be less of a loner did. I thought that with the new year and new school I could be more like those people that had no problem with being friends with everyone. But I guess I can't. Because I have such a weird personality and the fact that I talk back to people too freakin' much, I probably seem like a freak to people in my secondary school. I'm just trying to speak my mind more but I should've listened to my brain and just kept my mouth shut. I'm not even going to elaborate on what's been going on with my life because I find it a waste of your time. Though I do have friends, they just aren't enough to keep me from thinking about suicide. But who, honestly, has never thought about suicide? The fact that I've been thinking about suicide for the past few weeks is starting to scare me. I think the only thing that's stopping me is what I think my family would feel like when I'm gone. Then again, they might not even care. Now, I'm just hoping I'll get sick or hit by a car just to torture myself. I don't know how you all do it. It's just too hard to make friends with people who understand you. Since I am posting this, I can only pray everyone thinks my blog is dead and doesn't see this. I do not want to concern my primary school friends in this because they have nothing to do with this. I'll probably still be alive the next time you see me so just ignore this. Actually, I don't even know why I'm still typing. My hopes and dreams (and my family) are the only things standing in my way of me stabbing or drugging myself. Have you ever heard of the poem Fear no More by William Shakespeare? Its actually something we have to recite in drama.
Fear no more the heat o' the sun;
Nor the furious winter's rages,
Thou thy worldly task hast done,
Home art gone, and ta'en thy wages;
Golden lads and girls all must,
As chimney sweepers come to dust.

Fear no more the frown of the great,
Thou art past the tyrant's stroke:
Care no more to clothe and eat;
To thee the reed is as the oak:
The sceptre, learning, physic, must
All follow this, and come to dust.

Fear no more the lightning flash,
Nor the all-dread thunder-stone;
Fear not slander, censure rash;
Thou hast finished joy and moan;
All lovers young, all lovers must
Consign to thee, and come to dust.

No exorciser harm thee!
Nor no witchcraft charm thee!
Ghost unlaid forbear thee!
Nothing ill come near thee!
Quiet consummation have;
And renowned be thy grave!

It's generally talking about death. I interpret it as there is nothing to worry about after death. There is nothing to be afraid of. There is nothing that can harm you. With that said, once again I am wondering why I'm not dead. I still have my whole life ahead of me so, I better not think too much because as I now should know, Thinking is not good for me.

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

I GOT A FRINGE!!!!

I GOT A FRINGE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 5 YEARS!!!

Now... I look like this...

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

A damn long quiz...

The damn long quiz is about to begin, please turn off all your cellphones and try not to fall asleep.

1. What's the connection between you & the last person that called you?
She's my mum.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Obviously I do but 99% of the time, it's on cus' I charge it every night.

3.What happened at 10.00am today?
In Maths class watching a crowd of people surrounding Mr Choy (Maths teacher) asking him how to do corrections for our Maths prelim paper.

4.When did you last cry?
Two nights ago.

5.What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
I hate peanut butter

6.What do you want in your life right now?
I dunno...more time to sleep?

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Put up my hood, if I even have one. Or just walk in the rain.

8.What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
My blanket. ( It gets cold at night)

9.What bottom are you wering now?
Black shorts

10.What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
That's for me to know and for you never to find out.

11.Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
Name once where I haven't. ( Excluding Yu Ting)

12.Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope.

13.What was the last movie you caught?
Wall.E. It's damn nice.

14.What are you proud of?
Um.........................

15.What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
I delete my messages on the first day of every month (I deleted it all yesterday)
So it's from....Pei Wen
" At my house"

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
Do you believe in Magic? by Aly and AJ

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Most are given by my schoolmates... and are usually linked to cats...
But those given by my friends out of school usually start with the letter K and contain the letter T in it.

18.What does your last received text message say?
It's from my mum. My family is Cantonese so we call our father's dad yeye.
" Get yeye to send u home.''

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
11.40pm, I think

20.Are you currently happy?
Sorta. Mostly bored.

21.Who gives you the most practical advice?
Um.....My posters of animals and drawings on my bedroom wall.

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Tried it twice. In small amounts it's great but too much in one mouthful is gross.

23.Who did you talk on the phone with last night?
My friend, Angela.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Trying to figure out what kind of people my friends will marry.

25.What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
My friends.

26.Do you wear toe socks?
Hell no.

27.Who was the last person you missed a call from?
My friend, Xinwei.

28.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Nuh-uh. Never.

29.What annoys you most in a person?
Unattentiveness when I'm trying to teach them something and lack of common sense.

30.Do you have a crush on anyone?
Um.....am I heavily crushing on someone? Heavily, no. Slightly, yes.

31.Have you ever done cocaine?
Tempted to once in an emo mood, but no. Not gonna happen either.

32.What is the colour of your room?
White.

33.Do you believe in the saying "talk in cheap"?
What the hell does that mean?

34.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
Not worth the life sentence.

35.Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
Me.

36.What do you want to say to the person you have a crush on?
"Hi"

37.Who was the last person to hug you?
It's been a very LONG time since I was last hugged...
Frankly, I can't remember who.

38.Do you have a life?
Nahh, just walk around pretending that I have one.

39.Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
Nope.

40. What is the reason behind your favourite jacket/sweater?
It's soft and comfy.

41.Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
A guy from my class.
DON'T BE SICK AND THINK ABT GROSS STUFF.

42.When was the last time you smiled?
2 seconds ago.

43.Have you changed this year?
Who hasn't?

44.What are you listening to right now?
My voice. I'm singing.

45.Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Yup. Myself. If it's counted.

46.Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open but I gotta blink sometimes.

47.Is there a quote you live by?
"No point in crying - only thing to do is to fight back."
But I keep forgetting it when I get sad. T.T

48.Do you want someone you can't have?
Not really....I will stop liking someone if my friend likes him.

49.Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes.

50.What was the worst idea you've had this week?
Highly confidential.

51.What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
Reading.

52.Are you happy with your love life right now?
I have none but it's always good to have one.

53.What song describe your love life?
Like i said I have none but if I did it would most likely be...
Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney.

54.Does the person know that you like him/her?
No idea.

55.Who always make you laugh?
Almost everybody.

56.Do you speak other language other than English?
Chinese ( Though I suck) and a lil' of Japanese.

57.Are you blond?
OMFG ROFLMAO BLOND? WTF NO!

58.What's your middle name?
It would be a "*spacebar*".

59.What are you doing tomorrow?
Breathe, eat, sleep, sing, blink , stand, walk...
Basically, move.

60.What do you think you are like?
Myself. ← standard answer.

61.Who will you choose to die with?
I would rather die FOR a person.

62.Where have you been today?
On Earth.

63.What game do you play often?
Truth or Dare?

64.Who are you missing right now?
The imaginary dead dog/cat I never had.

65.If you've to choose between friendship & true love, which will you choose?
FRIENDSHIP! DUH?!

66.What are you doing right now?
Doing this impossibly long quiz. Sitting, breathing, blinking and typing.

67.Which primary school are you from?
Used to be from Bukit Timah Pri Sch but currently in Pei Hwa Presbyterian Pri Sch.

68.Name 5 colours that you like.
Black, Purple, Blue, White, Red.

69.What emotion do you like to show?
Happiness. I like to show that. How can anyone like showing sadness?

70.What is life to you?
Um... life is life.

71.If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Think of solutions.

72.Who did you last chat with in msn today?
No one is online...

73.Who do you admire the most?
Um.... no one.

74.Which month are you born in?
November.

75.How are you feeling right now?
Sleepy, bored

76.What is the time now?
9.26 pm- 9.27pm ( the time is probably going to be different when I post this...)

77.Where are you now?
Home, in front of my laptop.

78.What colour did you use to dye your hair?
I DIDN'T DYE MY HAIR.

79.Why are you doing this test?
I saw it on my friend's blog and I was bored.

80.What do you do when you're moody?
Sing or dance or criticise people mercilessly.

81.At which age you wish to get married?
No specific age.

82.Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
I don't have a GIRLFRIEND.

83.Do you think you have enough confidence?
Yup.

84.Who is the person you trust the most?
Yu Ting and Lee You

85.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yup, I saw it before.

86.If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
It would be .. confidential.

87.What is your goal for this year?
Not get into Northlight Secondary School.

88. Do you believe in eternal love?
Yes. Sadly, it's not happening to me.

89.What do you love?
Something.

90. Do you really think global warming is a real threat?
It is, I'm sort of worried. A bit

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Annoyance and Anger mixed together.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
OF COURSE! Except sometimes I ruin it by getting annoyed.

93.Do you believe in God?
Nope.

94.Who cares for you the most?
Dunno.

95.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Love and friendship.

96.What're you going to bring when you fight?
A bow, an arrow.

97.What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Almost killing someone. Literally. As in I almost accidenatally poisoned them.

98.How would you feel when people no longer care for you?
Dunno, sad. DUH

99.What if your stead two-timed you?
Listen to his side of the story and if his reason is stupid, dump him.

DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

WTF.... o.0

WTF......... Today, I was reading a book about this organised girl that was sooooooo sad (but sweet) called " The Little Lady agency" but anyway, she has to arrange her dumb sister's wedding and then I started daydreaming.... embarrassingly I was daydreaming about what I wanted my wedding to be like. T.T But anyway she had to be the bridesmaid and that led me to remember this time when I was about 3 or 5 when I was a flowergirl for my parents' friend's wedding. -.-'' It was in a beautiful church like the types you see in fairytales. Almost everything in it was wooden. It was sweet. Don't laugh at what I'm about to tell you next... When I was walking down the aisle behind the bride, I got nervous and ran of to my parents crying... I am sooo lame...T.T

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

Calling all aspiring teachers...

Calling all aspiring teachers...
If you ever wish to have a happy life teaching,
You better have an insane fucking amount of patience or an insane amount of luck.
Also, teachers have their reasons for favouring girls over guys.
Trust me.

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D